I dont understand    this is the third day in a row ive been up  until 5 and 6 in the morning

I just cant sleep my mind wont stop thinking

Im thinking about everything all the time... a job...my future... a wedding... where am I going in life.... my relationship... how am i going to pay my bills this month without a job... my birthday is next week and i got 5 bucks to my name... things that need attention now but also things i dont have to think about for a couple years..

WHY WONT MY BRAIN STOP THINKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  this is nuts..........

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.... 

OK so this morning was great .. I was in a good mood.... everything was okay.. but it quickly went down hill....

my boyfriend got madat me last night b/c I questioned him as to what he was doing.. and he said that my "possessiveness" is really annoying..

don't hate him yet he is kinda right.. I get these "intuitions" and "visions" and "ideas" in my head and think the worst ..

I was a little tender after our conversation.. I hate annoying him.  And he had a point.

But today he ..I dont know.. he's acting strange.. and I know I am over reacting..

it just feels like he got this new job and is happy again (thats good) and Im still looking for a job.. with no luck.. spending too much time with my own head.. overthinking everything.. and I quite frankly feel like a friggin loser...

so I did the only thing I could think of.. popped some extra multi vitamins in the hopes that maybe my batteries are just running too low...

but I sure could use a cyber hug...  .. man this sucks..

INSPIRATION...

FLOWS THROUGH ME...

A BRIGHT LIGHT...

THROWING ENERGY BEAMS WITH THE GREATEST POWER....

SING.....

USE YOUR VOICE....

SLIDING DOWN A RAINBOW...

FROM THE HIGHEST POINT IN THE BLUE SKY...

DASHING INTO THE GREEN OF FORREST.

Here is a little Love spell that I found in a book I have I wanted to share with everyone. It's simple and easy and meant to bring love into your life. 

It is from a book called "The Kitchen Witch" By Dove and distributed by Abaxion 'witch' by the way has a really good on-line store...you should check it out!

"The Love apple spell is one that uses a plain red apple, a piece of paper, a bowl and honey.  Write 'love' on the paper and slice the apple, place the paper in the slit.  Fill the bowl with honey and place the apple charm in.  Place this charm under your bed and think every night of love."  Dove, "The Kitchen Witch".