It's wonderful that you have found a lot of family! Blessings!

I left a comment and deleted it - you aren't crazy. I read your other blog and thought better of what I said. I found my natural father when I was 27. It is it's own story. Lots of good and bad. How odd that mom would find you then not say anything. I think it is not as simple as saying I love you or I don't love you. People hide from themselves. I was abused and in turn abused my own. It was ugly and it was all I knew. My adult life has been spent healing myself and facing the anger of my children. I think they've about hit me with all of it and I'm still standing. I can now open my mouth and not be blasted with both barrels - what I am trying to say is that your mother came from her own hell apparently - maybe there is something inside of you that is strong and can face her? See through the excuses - Maybe help is what she is looking for. You are not obligated to her in any way - but if there was a chance of understanding her - would you want it? Right now you hold all the choices. What are YOU up for? You are not a little girl anymore that she can abuse. Knowing her may make you revisit some old deep pain. It will not be easy - but if she were a TOTAL stranger and told you no one loved her - that's why she doesn't love her child - what could you say to her? We talk about our inner child - imagine hers for a moment. Honey the thought of it just makes me cringe. Abuse breeds abuse and you were so blessed to get out of it. Now for some reason, this opportunity has come to you. I will lift you in prayer and ask for extra strength and wisdom so you can handle this or NOT handle it...whatever you choose. I send my love.